It's Been One Week

Since I worked for them...

Hey y'all!

Okay, so it's been one week since I was laid off. It's been, um...interesting. Oh, the amount of songs I could quote right now, but won't. Let's see, first I was afr....I mean, first I freaked out for a few days. A move to Wisconsin nearly happened, then didn't. I did something I never thought I would, I spent time at the unemployment office. It was a wee bit disheartening to hear an employee there say "Why do so many people pick up and move out of state, when the job market here is so bad?! Do they really think that it's better anyplace else??" I then spent some time worrying that I wouldn't be accepted, but as it turns out, I am the first former employee of my former employers who actually is going to get unemployment pay. Not that I'm thrilled out of my gourd about that, but I've got bills, and they need to be paid. I've been scouring over newspaper classifieds, and over a website that my sister turned me onto a couple of years ago, when I was looking for a part time job to supplement my full time income. So far, I've found a few jobs that sound good, until I find out more about them, and get pissed all over again, because my spine is not usually my friend. I have found it helpful though, since so many employers are now stating that their available positions involve spending entire shifts on your feet. Stupid back of mine!!! I will keep looking though, not to worry.

In other news, the homefront. I don't know what is going on with Brent. I've been getting phone calls from his parents, and one very concerned old friend, wondering what he's like when he's here at home. It's hard to say, really. Most days he's either gone when I get up in the morning, or is home, but seclusive until I go out (for a paper, or groceries), and then is gone when I get back, not to return again until some point after I go to bed. I can only pay attention to physical details left by him, when he's not here. I can try to draw my own conclusions, based on former knowledge and experience, but not about what is happening this year. That is not helping my current psyche.

Other than all that, I would like to thank Rachel for turning me onto a new band! I felt guilty about spending $14 for their previous album, but was able to control myself from buying their new album too. Oh, that band is The Dead Weather. They are a truly alternative rock band, and I dig their sounds. I listened to it in it's entirety today, and then I went for a walk, in my old hometown, good old Mt Prospect. I stood on a bridge, a bridge over tro.... um, muddy waters...uh, murky waters. It was relaxing, for a bit anyway. I've not felt relaxed all week really. I did get some coffee with Stef on Friday, and that was cool, and kinda fun, but the massive caffeine rush did not soothe my nerves all that much.

Last night I didn't sleep that well. I had a dream in which my old dog, Dent, showed up, not doing very well. It disturbed me so much that I woke up. It took me a while to fully become aware, and when I did, I remembered that he was put down last year, and it made me sad again. I couldn't fall back asleep for almost two hours, and when I finally did, even stranger dreams ensued. It's been a while since I've had a night/morning like that. I suspect I'll surv...damnit, make it throu...um, live! Yes, live.

Okay, that's all for now. I just thought I've give you all something new to read. Okay, so maybe it's back to just being my mom and my sister reading this, but hey, at least you have something new to read in the morning mom!

I hope everyone is doing as well as can be, and is still enjoying some laughter, some good eats, some good company, and of course some great music!

Until next time, peace out y'all!