Hi and hello all.
The above picture was taken the day after my Thirtieth birth day anniversary. The rabbit has the oddest coat that I have seen to date. Other than that, life has been more or less the same. Still single, still mostly lonely. I need to find some way to shake up this life of mine. I can't really think of how to do that, but I know that not everything is copacetic. Really it is simply describable as boredom. I fought for a long time to accept being "alone". I finally did become comfortable with solidarity. I had felt the sensation for a long time, and was never truly uncomfortable with the notion, but practicing it is not as entertaining as pondering it. Now I'm just bored, and feel like I'll never get out of the monopractitioner life status. That might sound crazy, or unlikely to some, but it's not to me. I have the ability to communicate with just about everybody I share a language with, but as far as knowing how to take a relationship to the next level still seems to be a difficulty that I'm afflicted by. I'm not happy about it, really. I'm feeling a bit desperate of late. But when confronted with a new woman that excites attraction in me, I can't seem to stop feeling as though if I speak I will come off as nothing but desperate. That only sucks because it transfers over to trying to speak with people I feel no attraction towards. So basically my whole life is in need of some companionship, but I have forgotten how to have, or even enjoy that. Hmmm, one day maybe. Or maybe I'll spend more time than I'd like feeling like an odd rabbit in a cage...
Peace y'all :) Time for some mind numbing television, just so I can think in more simplistic ways ;)
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